~~Wednesday weigh in~~

I feel like crap today, I feel like a wind-up toy that has been wound too tight! I'm trying to fight off a cold that I think I caught from my hubby, so far it's just a mild sore throat but I'm hoping that it doesn't turn into a full blown cold (like he has). So I loaded up with drugs last night to try and fight this bug but I think I'm the only person in the world that can't sleep after taking cold medication! I was so tired but all I did was toss and turn all night! The last time I looked at the clock it was 2:00AM !! I'm beat today, when I don't get enough sleep I tend to get grouchy and it doesn't take much to set me off! So look out! ;)

It doesn't help that my weigh in today was not the best, not the worst either but I'm still a little upset by the efforts I have been putting into this weight loss thing. Last night was grocery shopping day so we decided to grab a bite to eat on our way, we went to Dairy Queen, all I really wanted was a ice cream to make my throat feel better but instead I went for the vegetarian quesadilla. I'm sure it's one of their better choices but it had way too much cheese and I could feel it hit my stomach, I should have just stuck with the Chicken Caesar salad. I really need to concentrate more on my portions and stopping when I feel full! I've always been a plate cleaner - not finished till my plate is clean! Even if I feel like I'm going to burst and there is only 2 more bites, I'll consider it a test and force them in! I must stop when I start to feel full!! I feel that I have seen a huge physical change in me but I still need to work on my mental state, if I can't correct my "fat" mentality it won't take long and I will be right where I was 8 months ago! I need to focus more on my lifestyle - get those 30 minutes of exercise in (even if I'm feeling a little sick) and either take smaller portions or I need stop feeling guilty about throwing food away and just not eat it! So since it was grocery shopping night I never got my walk in either - I knew I wasn't going to be seeing any loss this week and I was right!

Week 32 =183.8lbs

(+0.2lbs)

I suppose it could have been way worse and 0.2lbs shouldn't really count - it was probably cause my hair was still wet! ;)

I can hardly wait for this weekend to get here, even though it is going to be filled with lots of "diet" challenges. We have a family dinner on Friday and another one on Sunday!! It will be a test of my will power and hopefully I'll pass - I guess the next weigh in will be my score!? :) I can honestly say that loosing weight was way easier when I had more of it too loose (which makes sense) and I am glad that I was a little stricked on my diet at the beginning cause I'm sure that if I was slack about it then I still would be now and it would be twice as hard to drop this weight!

On the plus side, as some of you know I had my dentist appointment yesterday and my teeth are nice,white and polished today! I hate getting them cleaned, having them scrap my teeth and the fluoride treatment is even worse but it is totally worth it!! Thank goodness for benefits !!

Happy Hump Day! ;)