my Kitty is sick again! :(

My Kitty is sick again, she was doing really good for awhile - eating lots and putting some weight back on!! But now I don't know what happened just one day she stopped eating! ?! She hasn't eaten for 4 days! She is back to looking like a bag of bones and has very little energy. I've tried everything to get her to eat, she is even having a hard time getting water down?! On the weekend I tried to cater to her a little and would bring the food/ water to her in hopes that she would eat/ drink something. After sipping on a little water I noticed that it looked like she had fallen asleep at the water dish and her little chin was dipped in the water!? Like she didn't even have the energy to pull her head out of the dish! I think it is time..... I'm not sure how long I can let her keep going without eating!? She doesn't look very good at all, I was so hoping that she could have one last summer - sitting in the sun relaxing, chasing butterflies but I don't think I can prolong the inevitable any longer. :(

On a happier note -- I went to Denise's son's 1st birthday party on the weekend! It was awesome, he got tons of gifts and he actually took part in unwrapping most of them (unlike my nephew who was much more interested in having people do the work for him)! Every time I see the little guy I'm amazed at how much more advanced he is from other kids I know. He walked younger then most kids I know and got teeth pretty young too!? I suppose all kids are different and you can't compare one to the other but as a parent and having a child that seems more advanced then most it must give you a huge sense of pride?!?

We also went over to our friends house for a BBQ (the friends that the hubby was helping put the floor in for) and she has a 16 month old that I haven't seen for a while and has turned into a vicious little girl!! I was amazed at both the parenting and the attitude of this little girl! She is such a bully, there was another little girl there that was 15 months old and a little smaller then her that she would pinch on the cheek (hard enough to make them go rosy red) and she bit her nose (I thought she was going to give the other little girl a kiss - but then she went for the nose!! ) She would grab toys from this other little girl and when my hubby said "oh-no no ... you need to share" the mother got a little excited telling us that you aren't suppose to say "share" !?! WTH ?? She works in a daycare and that's what they taught her! You're not suppose to tell them to share until they are over the age of 2? And when this little girl started pinching the other girl the mother handled it by pinching her back? Now I don't know much about raising kids but I would think that by doing it back it would teach the little girl that it was kinda OK to keep doing it and that it is a way of getting attention? The mother blames my hubbies friends dad cause he will innocently pinch her checks or rough her up a bit!? I don't know.... I do know however that this little girl is evil - she would get this evil look in her eye every time she was going to do something bad!

Got the green light!

So as most of you know I had my doctors appointment yesterday! I made a small mistake, because I had to reschedule my appointment I must have forgot to change the time and I only changed the day. So yesterday I showed up for my 9:30am appointment only to find out that I wasn't scheduled to see the doctor until 2:30pm!! Wowser's -- I suppose it all worked out though, because my doctors office is almost an hour away from where I live and work it didn't make much sense to come all the way back to work just to work an hour and leave again for my appointment. So I stayed in the city that my doctors office is in, called my boss and told him I made a mistake and wouldn't be in that day! Instead I went over to my SIL's and visited my niece - boy is she ever a cutie!! :) I just can't get enough of her! Then my girlfriend Denise called and I went to go visit her and her little boy for a few hours before my appointment! It was great!! My doctors visit went fairly well, she was very happy with my weight loss letting me know most things that I already knew, like that by me loosing weight I will have a "less risk" pregnancy -- less chance of high blood pressure and diabetes. She pretty much gave me the green light saying that now is the perfect time to have a baby. I told her that I was fairly paranoid that we might have problems getting pregnant - just because we haven't been preventing for over two years and haven't had a "oops" yet!? ? She told me that if we are actively "trying" and don't end up pregnant by October that I should go back and we well get that ball rolling! So she is giving us 6 months !! Which I'm happy about cause I thought that most doctors want you to "try" for at least one year before they do anything for you!

I have a birthday party today after work!! Denise's boy's 1st birthday!! It should be a blast, I'm looking forward to it. I am meeting my hubby there cause he is helping a friend install a floor today and I am working, the hubby also has to go back to his buddies after the b-day party to finish the floor so I can stay a little later and have another visit with Denise if I want! (which I probably will). Crappy thing is that I forgot my camera at home - so I may have to stop and pick up a disposable one!! We got two invites in the past week for weddings!! They are both for cousin's on my hubbies side, one in Edmonton and one in some tiny little town about 4 hours away - called Robb! I am excited for both weddings not only because they are for two people that I like on the hubbies side but because by the time the weddings are to take place I should be at goal and I can dress and look really good!! I can't wait to show off my new look, I'm hoping to impress a lot of people! ;)

A lady that is on NS and lives close to me is trying to set up a lunch date to meet other people that are on NS in our area. It is for April 29th and I need to decide pretty soon if I am going or not!! I kinda want to go but I've never really been a very sociable person and I really don't want to go by myself! I'm trying to convince Jordanna and Denise that they should come with me but I'm not sure if either of them want to go!? So now I need to decide if I should go by myself and venture outside of my comfort zone to meet new people? Or resort back to my old self and not go!? I'm pretty sure I know what everyone will tell me to do and I know what I should do. I think I'll try and talk to Denise about it tonight and see what she has to say!? I'll probably go with or without them, but I do hope at least one of them will join me! ;)

Too funny!! :)

I found this blog that was so funny! It is a weight loss related blog and I absolutely split my gut when I read her muffin recipe!! LMAO !! It's so funny I hope my link works! -- Only the mature readers should check it out ;) http://www.pastaqueen.com/halfofme/archives/2007/02/the_joy_of_cook.html

Penn And Teller Get Hippies To Sign Water Banning Petition

Since I will be away tomorrow morning I wanted to post my Fun Friday stuff today. So scoll down to see today's post! ;)

This clip is too funny!! I could not believe the number of people that had no clue as to what they were signing! ??

Thursday --

So we had our meeting for the race track the other night and they seem to have lots of new ideas in mind for this year. They have also been doing or plan on doing some improvements to the grounds! They plan on adding more suites on the drag side, improving the lounge, adding a real coffee shop with 'healthy' snacks and upgrading the bathrooms!!! Their bathrooms were horrible out there - because it is a race track it is situated outside of the city close to the airport (too many people complain about the noise and pollution when it was in the city). So because of this it was like going to a camp, just recently they got running water for the bathrooms (before all they had were outhouses) and the water that they did have in the bathroom was ice cold cause there was no hot water tank! The toilets were constantly getting plugged either from idiot people that thought it was fun!? or because the toilet was just a piece of junk!?






I have been interested in getting more hours with the track - cause I'm money hungry and could always use a few extra bucks! So we talked to the manager last night who also wants me and the hubby to work more or at least come out more to help fill in for breaks and be kind of a floater!? I think being a floater will be fun cause I'm not stuck doing the same job all day, sitting at a desk typing in numbers! I did mention to her that the only issue I had was with pay and how last years pay was crap! She agreed and asked how much I would like to get -- I absolutely hate this question! I always seem to under cut myself cause I don't want to sound greedy by saying some outrageous number! So I spit out $50 an event - WTH was I thinking! Grrr -- clearly I wasn't thinking, $50 stinks too! I don't want $50 an event that's still crap pay!! It's still works out to less then minimum wage, I hate my big mouth! I hate when I open my big mouth without thinking first - and I seem to do it a lot (un-intentional of course)!! She was so quick to say OK to my stupid $50 an event that I felt like an idiot! Now how am I going to tell her that I was stupid and actually I want more .... like $75 an event!! @#(*&@ DUH !! ((sigh))






On a plus note, everyone (on the drag side) commented on my new look and weight loss! I love being able to dress up a little and feel good about the way I look - I love being able to impress people and have them look at me different. But I still feel really awkward when they start to talk to me about it and ask questions! I sometimes wish that people would just talk amongst themselves and I would just know that I look better - I don't need everyone telling me that! But if no one did I would wonder what the problem was! ? !? It's tough, or maybe it's just me being weird!? ? I was surprised at how many people made it sound like I was a failure for not being able to loose weight on my own and that I had to go to a company that supplied food to help!? Just the things they were saying, it would go something like this:






"Wow, you look good! You were busy this winter! How did you do it?"


So I would reply....


"oh, thanks- I am on Nutrisystem"


and then they would say something like...


"OH - Well .... whatever works I guess" or "well, I'm a firm believer in going to places that help you loose" ? ??






I probably would have never even said NS if it wasn't for the fact that I told a lady last year that I had joined and she started some crazy diet (similar to Atkins) where you are only allowed X amount of carbs for so long then you can slowly bring them in and she had these powdered 'energy' drinks? It clearly didn't work for her, since she looked like she had gained back all the weight she lost before winter and was back to where she was a year ago!? She is a super nice lady and we do get along so I do feel bad for her, I just think it was a crazy diet that isn't meant to be long term - there is no way a normal person could live on that diet for life! She gave me a bunch of these to try:

They are coffee sweeteners that are flavored like Mocha, French Vanilla and Hazelnut! They are not available in Canada yet and I was anxiously waiting to try them! Because they are made by Splenda they are 0 calories and I absolutely love hazelnut in my coffee! Unfortunately that was the only flavor she didn't have but I tried the French Vanilla one last night and I'm not sure if I liked it? I missed the "cream" flavor, the coffee looked like a black coffee but smelt like a French Vanilla! I felt the need to add milk to it just to get the cream flavor!? Kinda defeats the purpose in using it?! I also needed to use 2 packets in my coffee just to get enough to taste, I'm not sure if I would buy these when they do become available to us Canadians, it did taste OK but I still really like my FF Hazelnut creamer! This lady did mention that her daughter likes to put the french vanilla one in her plain yogurt to give it a boost and I think this would be a great idea! The one tiny little pack of french vanilla made my kitchen smell great! The smell was much stronger then the taste.

Wednesday weigh in ~~ !!

I am totally thrilled by my weigh in today!! I can not believe I managed to pull off such a big number!!!

For Week 33 I freakishly lost -3.8lbs!!

Bringing my grand total to -71.8lbs ~~ Amazing! That's all I can say! :) I suppose the big loss is a direct result of having such small losses the past few weeks? This week I earned my 70lb blue bear and only have two more bears to go!! I am however slightly upset and amazed that I lost more this week then I had for the entire last month!! Here are my stats ....

START=251.8lbs

Week 1-4=233.6lbs (-18.2lbs)

Week 5-8=223.4lbs (-10.2lbs)

Week 9-12=215.2lbs (-8.2lbs)

Week 13-16=208.0lbs (-7.2lbs)

Week 17-20=200.4lbs (-7.6lbs)

Week 21-24=193.6lbs (-6.8lbs)

Week 25-28=187.0lbs (-6.6lbs)

Week 29-32=183.8lbs (-3.2lbs) WTH??

Week 33 = 180.0lbs (-3.8lbs)

****Grand total*****=(-71.8lbs)

I have a pretty good feeling about this month, at least I feel that I'm off to a good start anyway!? I'm not too sure what I did different this week ~ I was sick for a few days but still tried to eat all my meals and I drank all my water just like every other week!? I missed my evening walk twice last week and ate two big Easter dinners !? I am trying to switch my coffee and tea to decaf (one more step for having a healthy pregnancy - whenever that happens)? And I have been getting awfully tried of carrot sticks and celery so I've been switching up my veggies a bit- more peppers (red,green and yellow), mushrooms and cauliflower?! I may have been a little bloated last week due to TOM? Other then that I haven't really changed much!? Either way I'm very happy with this weeks numbers and I'm hoping that I can keep it up! ;)

~~MY BEARS~~

10 - Pound (Female) Pound says congratulations on your initial weight loss.She's here to keep you motivated as you continue toward your goal weight


20 - Commitment Losing 20 lbs. proves you have the commitment you need to succeed, but a little inspiration from Commitment couldn't hurt

30 - Community Community Bear says take advantage of the support systems around you. Whether in a chat room or living room, don't be shy about your goals


40 - Determination You said you would do it and you did! That's 40 lbs. down and your very own Determination Bear to boot

50 - Encouragement Wow! Losing 50 lbs. is a great accomplishment. Encouragement Bear hopes you will help other people reach their weight loss goals


60 - Focus You set your mind to it and you stuck to your meal plan.Focus Bear wants to be the fuzzy little reminder that helps you lose more weight


70 - Willpower Just in case you need a little extra help.Willpower Bear is here to keep you on track until you reach your goal

Yesterday I was asked where I got the YVES "Mexican" veggie ground round

and I just wanted to let you know that I bought it at our local grocery store -- IGA or Sobey's. They have a wide selection of the Yves products and they are usually in the organic section of the grocery store. The mexican one was really good and It made a lot - one of their little packs are equal to 1 1/2lbs of ground beef! I have lots left over in the fridge, probably enough for two more meals! I'm excited to try more of there products - hopefully the other ones are just as good! :)

Tidbits

It's snowing AGAIN!! gesh .... I suppose I can't complain too much unless it is still snowing after May long weekend!? We have had lots of snow this year compared to previous years, I hope that doesn't mean that our summer will be more wet then previous years as well!? At least not on weekends! ;)






I'm slightly grouchy and slightly irritated today, in our house I'm the one in charge of paying the bills and making sure everything ticks along with no bumps! Well this morning my hubby called to ask if I had paid his M/C that he uses for his work and with me switching the banks around and making sure that all our direct with drawl payments were changed over I somehow forgot to pay it!? It doesn't help that we seem to miss bills, we only seem to get a bill every couple months, so if I'm not on top of things and just pay the stupid thing on- line I tend to forget that we even have the card? So now the hubby is mad cause he can't buy the supplies he needs on the card and I'm sure he figures it's my fault! I just wish we got the bill every month so that it was easier to keep track of! ((sigh)) Whatever, it's too late now - so much for getting our credit score to go back up!

I also forgot that we have a meeting tonight with the race track, we need to fill out our applications and have our orientation. We go through it every year and every year it seems like we never have enough employees to work the various stations in order to make the races run good!? But every year people show up to help for the pathetic pay that we get, I suppose it's more for the entertainment then the job!? I haven't seen any of these people since the banquet in October, so I'm 20lbs lighter since then and hope to impress a few people with my new look! I'm also hoping for a raise this year, last year I only got $30 per event. It didn't matter if I was there for 4 hours or 16 hours, I only got $30! ! It's not a bad pay if you are only there for 4 hours (minimum wage) but if your there for any longer then 4 hours it's like slavery!! There were no perks last year, we didn't even get a discount at the concession, this year is apparently going to be different? I was thinking of working the Sat., Sun races too just to get extra pay but I think they found someone for that position, so I will just be there for Friday night Street Legals!

I have a somewhat good feeling about my weigh in tomorrow, even though I haven't been 100% with my walking or the eating. My clothes feel a little looser and I just feel lighter?! I'm hoping that it's not just my mind playing games on me, I'm really hoping that my mini-challenge ticker starts moving!

There was a new season of Little People Big World that started last night, we watched it - I like the show it is fun to watch and last nights show was very exciting!! Did anyone else watch this show? Last night for dinner I made taco's (not NS - on my own), I found YVES ground veggie burger last time I was grocery shopping and picked up one that was "Mexican" mix. It is pre-cooked (which I didn't realize until I looked at the cooking instructions). And I must say it was petty darn good! It has only 90 Cals per 1/3 of a cup, only 2.5g of fat and it had like 11g of Protein. Even the hubby liked it, you couldn't even tell it was veggie 'meat' ? LOL Unlike the YVES Veggie burger and veggie dogs I tried and was a little unhappy with, this ground round was really good! I wouldn't recommend the patties or the veggie dogs though, they seemed quite rubbery and bland? I think this is similar to 'Boca meat' that a lot of people on NS talk about but I have not been able to find? Maybe it's Canada's version of Boca? Yves has a pretty good website if you are interested just click on the red YVES link above! :)

Monday!

Morning! ~~ Hopefully everyone had a great weekend full of family and food! ;) My weekend was good, I could have used one more day off, but I say that every weekend! :)

Friday was a day off for me but unfortunately I woke up at 6 in the morning with a killer headache and a voice that was hardly recognizable! This was also the day that we were suppose to have dinner at my brothers so I was a little worried that I was too sick to make it. I took it very easy all morning - sipping on tea and OJ, feeling somewhat queasy. I took a bunch of cold pills and hoped that I would feel better by the time we had to leave. Thankfully I did feel much better and we headed to my brothers, the whole family was there (except for one aunt that seems to come and go as she pleases and my uncle that leaves in a different city). My nephew was dropped off 2 1/2 hours late by his mother - I was ready so snap! She thinks she can do what ever she wants and has no consideration for anyone else! It was a nice visit and dinner was great! I didn't over indulge, although it would have been easy too, everything tasted very good. I think me not feeling very well had a lot to do with the amount I ate. We also received pics of Kenzie, my SIL got a whole bunch done at Wal-Mart, I was surprised at how cheap it was. I think they got about 7 different positions and a huge package of pictures (even a puzzle and 16x20) for only $160!! I took a bunch of wallet size pics and I got a 5x7.

Saturday was a day to ourselves, I went shopping in the morning for new sneakers, a nice top to wear to the bowling banquet/ anniversary dinner and picture frames to put my niece's pics into! In the evening after supper my in-laws called and told us they were picking us up to go for coffee! I was a little concerned thinking that they had some bad news for us but they just wanted to give us our Easter presents and have a visit! ? The hubby got some chocolate eggs and I got the movie Happy Feet and a solar Welcome sign with little turtles on it (it's cute)!

On Sunday I watched my new movie (it was ok) and we went to the hubbies Grandma's for dinner - it was also OK. She tends to either over cook everything or drowned everything in grease! So needless to say the turkey was more like jerky and the ham was kinda greasy!? I was also surprised to see that she had put out veggies! She never has veggies with her meals and it was nice to see that there was some there this time! We didn't stay too late cause the hubby had to go help move a deep freezer and I wanted to take the dog for her walk and try to burn off some of dinner!

I'm hoping that my little chicken ticker will move a least a little this week! I'm really hoping to "Beat the Fat Kid" ! LOL I can hardly wait for this weekend too, it is Denise's boy's 1st birthday party and I'm excited to see him eat his first cake! I also have my doctors appointment on Friday so I'm hoping for some good news there! :)

Meh ~~

So for most of us today is like a Friday cause hopefully if you're like me you get tomorrow off! I so need a long weekend right now - it's perfect timing! I need to stop at the grocery store on my way home tonight to pick up supplies to make my Cabbage Salad for tomorrow and tonight is our last night of bowling for the year!! YEAH ! Hopefully we will do better then last week but with both me and my hubby feeling a little sick I'm not sure if that will happen!?

I'm also hoping that I will do ok this weekend with all the family activities and meals! I honestly don't think I will be seeing any big numbers on my next weigh in either. With having this cold I sure don't have the energy to excercise and with the challenge of going to two Easter dinners I may endulge a bit more then I should!? But there's always the week after - right?

~~Wednesday weigh in~~

I feel like crap today, I feel like a wind-up toy that has been wound too tight! I'm trying to fight off a cold that I think I caught from my hubby, so far it's just a mild sore throat but I'm hoping that it doesn't turn into a full blown cold (like he has). So I loaded up with drugs last night to try and fight this bug but I think I'm the only person in the world that can't sleep after taking cold medication! I was so tired but all I did was toss and turn all night! The last time I looked at the clock it was 2:00AM !! I'm beat today, when I don't get enough sleep I tend to get grouchy and it doesn't take much to set me off! So look out! ;)

It doesn't help that my weigh in today was not the best, not the worst either but I'm still a little upset by the efforts I have been putting into this weight loss thing. Last night was grocery shopping day so we decided to grab a bite to eat on our way, we went to Dairy Queen, all I really wanted was a ice cream to make my throat feel better but instead I went for the vegetarian quesadilla. I'm sure it's one of their better choices but it had way too much cheese and I could feel it hit my stomach, I should have just stuck with the Chicken Caesar salad. I really need to concentrate more on my portions and stopping when I feel full! I've always been a plate cleaner - not finished till my plate is clean! Even if I feel like I'm going to burst and there is only 2 more bites, I'll consider it a test and force them in! I must stop when I start to feel full!! I feel that I have seen a huge physical change in me but I still need to work on my mental state, if I can't correct my "fat" mentality it won't take long and I will be right where I was 8 months ago! I need to focus more on my lifestyle - get those 30 minutes of exercise in (even if I'm feeling a little sick) and either take smaller portions or I need stop feeling guilty about throwing food away and just not eat it! So since it was grocery shopping night I never got my walk in either - I knew I wasn't going to be seeing any loss this week and I was right!

Week 32 =183.8lbs

(+0.2lbs)

I suppose it could have been way worse and 0.2lbs shouldn't really count - it was probably cause my hair was still wet! ;)

I can hardly wait for this weekend to get here, even though it is going to be filled with lots of "diet" challenges. We have a family dinner on Friday and another one on Sunday!! It will be a test of my will power and hopefully I'll pass - I guess the next weigh in will be my score!? :) I can honestly say that loosing weight was way easier when I had more of it too loose (which makes sense) and I am glad that I was a little stricked on my diet at the beginning cause I'm sure that if I was slack about it then I still would be now and it would be twice as hard to drop this weight!

On the plus side, as some of you know I had my dentist appointment yesterday and my teeth are nice,white and polished today! I hate getting them cleaned, having them scrap my teeth and the fluoride treatment is even worse but it is totally worth it!! Thank goodness for benefits !!

Happy Hump Day! ;)

10 things ....

10 Things I Don't miss ...

#1- -- Hearing a "fat" joke and secretly wondering if someone was trying to tell me something ?!

#2- -- Feeling like I'm the biggest person in the room.

#3- -- Chafing! Need I say more! ;)

#4- -- Feeling like I was always out of breath, even after the simplest chores.

#5- -- The extra button they put on plus size pants? WTH is that about?? Do people actually use the extra 'hidin' button? I know I never!!

#6- -- Not being able to shop off the rack! For the first time last weekend I bought a pair of shorts at Costco (without trying them on) only to realize when I got home that I should have bought a medium instead of the large that I picked up!! :)

#7- -- Not being able to see who I am when I look in a mirror.

#8- -- Walking into someones backyard only to discover that the only chairs they have to sit on are those flimsy little cheap plastic chairs that seem to break easily when weight is applied! I'd rather sit on the grass and risk having a bug crawl up my pant leg!

#9- -- Seeing people whispering and assume they are saying something terrible about me!

#10- -- Always hiding behind people and trying hard not to get noticed! I always used to say I was shy but really I think I would just rather not be noticed.

Another week begins ... again!

So another week begins, I'm a little grouchy today, I stayed up late to watch Amazing Race and when I finally got to bed I couldn't fall asleep! I just tossed and turned for at least a half hour! It was a good episode last night though and worth staying up for, I was surprised that the teams are so far apart from each other! ? I like seeing all the places they go to even if it is for just a quick visit, it gives me some ideas of places I might be interested in seeing someday!?

We woke up this morning to snow!! Just when I thought it was over ..... it has to hit us again! I can see out our front window at work as I stand here and type this and I'm watching as the trucks go sliding by, looks pretty slippery out ?! Or they are just idiot drivers!

The weekend was good, very lazy .... we didn't do much at all! Saturday I made a trip to Costco and boy were they ever busy!! I found a couple really cute books I'm going to give my niece's and nephew for Easter. I also picked up a new stainless steel microwave so now all that's left is getting a new stove!! We had a surprise visitor on Sunday, Denise and her family were in the neighborhood so they stopped in for a quick visit. Denise informed me that I had some tulips that were sprouting!! How exciting!! So after I took the dog for her walk I checked it out and I counted 17 tulips that were just starting to come up! I can't wait to see what color they are! Hopefully it is nice next weekend and I can find the time go out and clean up some of my dead plants from last year!

Looks like April is going to be super busy month with Easter next weekend, Denise's boy's first birthday, our bowling banquet and hubbies grandparents anniversary party! I also have a dentist appointment tomorrow and Jordanna is having her wedding anniversary (3rd I think?) !! Well we finally have all our plans in order for Easter. I guess my Dad wanted to order a turkey meal from this store in St.Albert that makes everything for you and he was going to bring that over to my brothers house. But since the hubby and me can't make it to their house on Sunday for dinner they changed their dinner plans to Friday (so we can attend) but the store that offers the turkey meal thing is closed Friday so it is up to us now to do a pot luck and have my SIL make a turkey and dressing. I can't wait to see my niece and nephew, I wish we lived closer to them! I will be bringing my 'Cabbage Salad', it makes lots and is usually pretty popular (and I can make it low-fat without anyone knowing it is). I'll have to post a recipe of it.

Oh, I also got my treadmill on Saturday too!! I haven't tried it yet, the hubby needs to hook up the satellite box thing to the TV in the basement so I can watch my favorite shows as I walk. I'm excited to see if I will like it and I'm hoping that it's not too noisy or loud!? Seeing's how it's been around the block a few times it may be louder then a new one, but I think I will like it?! Hopefully he remembers to bring all the supplies home tonight to set it up! ;)